At the beginning of this year after having just turned 34 the last week of December, I really took stock of my life and just began kind of looking into my heart in a deeper way… I began to ask the Lord, “Father, what is it that You’d have me do with this year and even in the years to come? Where would You have me go, what would You have me do, and what would You like to show me?”
I knew that missions was what has been strongest in my heart for probably the last decade or so — when I’ve gone on trips to Russia, Georgia, Papua New Guinea, etc. — they’ve been the times when I’ve grown the most, I’ve been stretched the most, and I’ve felt the most alive. Ding ding ding… Perhaps that was God sayin, “hav, this needs to be a bigger part of your life!” even back then. Better late than never, right? Every time I’d think about my life and where I want to be down the road, I’ve always seen missions playing a huge part. So with that, I began to look up different missions ministries and schools as I’d like to get as much training as possible in order to help me make the most of each trip overseas whether it be a trip for 2 weeks or down the road, a full move to a foreign land.
Most of you know who missionaries Rolland and Heidi Baker are and have perhaps heard of their missions training school in Pemba, Mozambique… I began looking at their website and just asking the Lord, “God is this what You have for me?” I knew it would be an excellent school and I would learn a lot but I wasn’t feeling totally 100% about it. I love going to 3rd world countries and spending time with the poorest of the poor but my heart has been stirred up for quite some time to go to more countries in Europe and Eastern Europe — places that have seemed harder to reach — but places where people are finding out that the 9-5 grind isn’t fulfilling them like they had dreamed — that there must be something more to this thing called life. So I put it on the back burner waiting to see if God would either make the desire to go stronger or just cause it to fizzle out in my heart… A few months went by and then Iris Global (The Baker’s Ministry) posted a link on facebook to their new 6 week missions training school in South Lake Tahoe, CA that would begin August 8, 2014 (https://www.irisglobal.org/missions/harvest/south-lake-tahoe). My heart jumped… As I began to read through what the school was about — classes during the week days, praise and worship and special guests in the evenings, and weekend trips to places like San Francisco, Reno, and Vegas where we’d get to love on prostitutes and more inner city types of situations — put it all into practice, I knew in my heart this was the school and now was the time.
So the next phase was asking God, “What do I do about my job?? Do I quit and jump in full time to missions?? Do I see if they will let me take a leave of absence?? What’s the next step with all of this??” I didn’t have peace about quitting my job — so I emailed my boss to see if she would meet me so I could present this opportunity to her to see what she thought. Could’t hurt, right? If this is really what God has for me, He’s going to work out all the details, right? Exactly. My boss and my amazing lead supervisor couldn’t be more supportive and wonderful than they’ve been. They told me that they would approve a leave of absence and hold my job for me for when I returned — I couldn’t be more blessed to work for such wonderful ladies.
I sent my application in this past monday and lo and behold, I was accepted this afternoon. :)
There are things that God’s put on my heart for the future and I’m excited to see how He brings them to pass but even more so, I’m excited to go to this school to really learn in a deeper way how to love and honor each and every person I meet in a greater way… To show them what God looks like in a very tangible way. To show them that there is nothing they could have ever done or could ever do that God would not forgive. That He desires an intimate/fulfilling life changing relationship with each of them. Yeah, pretty much just bring the Good News as Jesus did… His love changes everything. :)
To all of you, my faithful friends and family, I ask that you would pray for me from now through the end of the school. That God would give me wisdom in each an every circumstance, protection on every road, great health, and just an increase of His love in me so that I might pour that out on others… I would be so grateful for each and every prayer prayed for me. I thank the Lord that He hears every one.
Before I applied, my wonderful Mom said to me, “hav, if you go through this school and the only thing you get from it is a greater love for others, that will serve you the rest of your life and be worth every second and every penny.” She is so right. I can’t really thank my family enough for all their love and support through this decision. It might seem like a quick no biggie 6 weeks for most but for a family girl/home body like me, quite a step of faith and I’m so very thankful to have such a wonderful family to encourage and support me in my pursuit to know and serve God more.
Feel free to follow the journey with me at www.passportmusttravel.com — I will try to post as much as I can along the way and through the process. :)
“Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” – Jesus